Fitness Friday || Self love & Self reflect.

Friday, 21 August 2020

Happy Friday everyone, I hope you've smashed your goals for the week. I know I'm getting there. 

I wanted to sit here today and just be honest, and speak my mind about all things Fitness and my own personal journey. Because I want to be honest here, and I want to be able to discuss everything. I was originally going to do an IGTV on my Fitness Instagram, but I always find them really awkward to film and I feel like it won't make much difference to my own thoughts. If that makes sense?? 

I've been having issues with my "weight loss journey" for the past 3-4 years, and as you can imagine, it's so fucking frustrating! (Excuse the language, but am from Yorkshire, and we swear to emphasise the point!) I could be on a really good eating plan; meal prepping, eating nothing but good food and cutting down on alcohol intake, and it made no difference. And it really got me down and really made me think about what it could be that was stopping it. Was my exercises not good enough? 

Everyone was seeing progress and I was seeing nothing? It does make you wonder though, just because you're not personally seeing your own progress, doesn't mean others aren't. My nana will compliment me, and tell me that it looks like I'm losing weight, and of course; I never believe her. Because I can't see it. 

So this is why I've started taking progress pictures, for my own eyes only (for now). I did a comparison a few weeks ago, and already noticed a small difference with myself. Because I'm really working on the particular areas and I'm enjoying the whole exercise-lifestyle again!


I started taking the pill in April 2016, and to me personally, it feels from then I've been struggling to keep weight off. In case you didn't know, one of the main side effects for taking the pill is weight gain. And how is that fair?! So I've been doing some research on myself, and I figured out that it was in fact the pill, that's the reason I'm struggling. (Not the only, but one of the main reasons)

Warning, this part I get critical about my own body, as I look through images.

December 2013.

I actually really liked my body at this point in my life. I was 18 years old and just finished college at this point, and was just about to start my first job in 2014. However, I don't think I was as self conscious as I am now.

April 2014.

I wouldn't be able to tell you anything negative about my body here, because I was comfortable, once again. Please ignore the hair, it reminds me of lockdown days, and jesus I didn't realise how bad it looked. 

October 2014.

I really like my body shape here. I remember feeling really good about myself in this dress, and was surprised at myself for buying such a bodycon style dress. 

February 2020

Can we firstly take a moment to appreciate how adorable my grandparents are?! Love them so much!! Anyways, this is from my trip to Australia at the beginning of the year. And all I can see is thick thighs and wide hips. However, I really enjoyed wearing this outfit and I'd still wear it again 100%! If I could still have the same body as I did from December 2013, I'd be swell. But you know what? I'm gonna have to fucking work to get it! And that's okay! I need to learn to not make excuses anymore and accept that this is my body. Even though I need to love myself for how I look in the moment, I can also accept that I want to look better. And I will.

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  1. This is a lovely post, thanks for sharing and I love the photos.
    Laila
    www.lailanblog.blogspot.co.uk

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