Thursday, 12 July 2018

Smile of delight.

Ocean blue eyes,
And a smile of delight.
This is what I think about all the time. 

Wednesday, 11 July 2018


It’s something that is often a thought in my mind. No matter what I’m doing the day, or who I’m with. It’s the looking down and trying to cover it, as I see reflections of myself in shop windows or mirrors. I almost feel disgusting for even going outside sometimes. 

It’s feeling like I’ve failed myself, for not being where I wanted to be in this moment. It doesn’t happen every day, but when it’s there, it appears in heaps and waves. And I’m unable to get it out of my mind. I fixate over it. Deciding against that outfit I originally loved, but I’m now against because of how I look. 

It’s a mental state of mind, and unfortunately for me, it’s just another addition to the list. But whenever I see myself; there’s always a negative, before a positive. 

Tuesday, 10 July 2018


It's the way my heart skips a beat when I first see him that day.
It's the picture of his smile that sticks in my head.
And it's the way our eyes meet from across the room.

It's these little things, that reels me back to him. And I find myself being enchanted by him. There's something about my eyes, that seem to draw back to him, whenever he's nearby.

He's almost like an addiction that I've kept to myself for so many months. Unable to speak out loud about it still, even though the drug is well aware of its own existence. I'm too scared to even do anything when he's around; worried that a simple step towards him, will cause myself to break down.

I wish I had the confidence to move this thing forward. To chance the thoughts inside my head, rather than them keeping me awake. But unfortunately the fear kicks in, and it's just the smile and a "hello" that I'll have to deal with. Until then, he's still an addiction. 

Monday, 9 July 2018

Silence Is Deafening

My heart still skips a beat when you walk into the room,
However, this ignorance you've created, is making me think doom.
All I want is to stare into your ocean blue eyes,
But you're giving me nothing, to my surprise.

I stay quiet, saying nothing to no one,
But this feels like a standstill; why are we not in motion?
So many thoughts are going 'round in my head,
Keeping me up as I like awake in my bed.

I've served the ball over to you,
Are you going to make me feel blue?
Because this silence is deafening,
And to speak up is almost threatening. 

But this is the choice I've made,
To see if my silence has paid.
I want to make you wonder,
Why my face is like thunder.

Friday, 29 June 2018


So if you've been reading my blog for a little while, you'll know that fitness takes over my life 4/5 times a week. I attend classes, do my own thing sometimes, etc. And while I'm there, I also take note of the workouts that have really worked with me. So, because I'm so lovely, I thought I'd share a new workout with you all!

An app that I use to time my workouts is "Seconds". You can personalise it to however you want to use it to suit you perfectly. (Obvs not a spon. Just a personal preference).

It's a good high intensity workout. Trying a brand new one tomorrow - so will probs put that one up soon! Let me know in the comments if you try this one out and what you thought! (By the way, this is a workout from a personal trainer at the gym. I'm not claiming this as my own).

Wednesday, 27 June 2018

Ocean Blue

He's someone that I've admired from afar,
Not telling anyone, so it doesn't leave a scar.

But there's something about his ocean blue eyes,
That's got my gaze lingering and heaving hopeful sighs.

Unfortunately due to my long list of preference,
Showing pictures to people as a reference.
That unfortunately this will just be a crush,
When a simple interaction can make me blush.

He's someone that I'll admire from afar,
Because the rejection will leave me a scar.
But his presence causes me to stare,
And silently ponder without a care.

Friday, 22 June 2018

Improving My Tattoos!

I admit that I’ve been slacking on my blog, which I apologise for. However, I can say that after this post, I will be more active and uploading two posts a week. It’s just deciding the days that I’ll be uploading…

Anyway, 2 years ago, I went with my friend Joanne to get a tattoo done. Well, it was two. One on each wrist. The tattoos were linked, and had two meanings to them. 1. The four leaf clover represented my niece (and now nephew, now that he’s born). 2. It also represents a One Direction song: End Of The Day. “Just Me, Her (Mollie & now Oisin so them), and the Moon.” (The second tattoo on my other wrist). And I was a bit… I wasn’t satisfied with how it looked basically. And I have gotten sick and tired of explaining what the four leaf clover is; “is it a broccoli?” “Is it a tree?” No, it’s a four leaf clover 🙄, so I finally decided to get something done about it: get it redone.

For me, even though the whole fear of saying no to someone is a big thing in my life; I really wanted to get this redone, as it was a symbol of something big and important in my life. So when my mum and I finally arranged an appointment to get it done on Wednesday (20th June). Full of nerves and eager to go, I finally made it. I'm not going to lie, I did apply numbing cream. Is that cheating??? It's not really when it didn't fecking work! Story of my life. 

So I went in with shaky hands and butterflies in my we arrived at the tattoo place. The pain wasn't as bad as I originally made it out to be. I have really sensitive skin and I hate pain. Because it's on the inside of my wrist as well, I was obvs really nervous. Turns out. as soon as you get used to the feeling, it ain't too bad.
I am absolutely obsessed with them and I love them so much! If you're thinking of getting a tattoo done, but you're worried about the pain, it's not as bad as you think, honestly.